I CAN'T HELP IT!!

You know there are many things in life that you try to fight so hard. Lots of times they are the things you are absolutely against and you tell yourself "I will never do this" or "I will never do that.." But then one day that all changes.. Your walls drop and your find yourself spinning. In the beginning of the semester I told myself I was going to be single, that no matter what I wouldn't date anybody. Now I find myself falling in love with this incredible man. It's like he grabbed a hold of my heart and I just couldn't hold myself to it. I tried breaking up with him lol but it didn't really work out. Everyday that goes by I love him more and more. It seems way to soon to be feeling this way and I don't want to get on this "love high" and then it dwindle down after a couple months. I want to love him forever. I want to know what that word means. I love everything about Nathan. He is such a gentleman. His mom raised him well. Granted, sometimes he is lazy and wants me to do stuff for him. lol but that's a typical man. I'm sure if he was willing to do everything for me too I would always ask him to do stuff for me instead of me ever getting up. And he does do a lot for me. I have noticed during the past weeks that he does more and more for me everyday. I don't just love him for his random acts of love, or they fact that he says the words. I love the person I am with him; carefree and happy. We can have so much fun together. We laugh at the stupidest, randomist things, but I love it. I love how much we have in common and the fact that we can spend like 5 hours together and then call each other on the phone and talk for another hour only getting off the phone because we have to get up early in the morning... I love the way when I see him my heart skips a beat or the fact that sometimes when I think about how much I care for him I feel like I have a 50 lb. weight on my chest. lol I know to most people that's not a good feeling to have but he makes me speechless and at the same time I want to say so much that the words can't come out fast enough. He makes me feel like skipping, and dancing at the same time. Some of the things HE says just make me almost faint just because I am blown away with his character. I think I am done for now because I am starting to have heart-palpitations lol