Feeling pretty..

GAY! This morning man, I just felt like crap. Have you ever had those mornings were you just wake up and you don't want the world to see you? This morning I had to finish up my Outline so I woke up @ 8. But I really felt like I have been looking like crap lately so I wanted to doll myself up. However, as I finished my make-up, got dressed and looked in the mirror. I thought to myself I will never be happy enough. No make-up, no clothes... they will not make me happy. Lots of girls hide behind this stuff to make themselves feel better. But in reality they feel like crap. The days when I look like a complete scrub are my favorite because I am so comfortable that I can just be me! But for whatever reason I have been feeling insecure lately and I wanted to "look pretty"... I got a lot of compliments today LOL. But all the compliments in the world won't make you feel better unless you believe you are truly beautiful. I went into EVAN today and it was pretty ironic that Mrs. Rose made us watch a kids cartoon basically explaining that God created us as individuals for a reason; on purpose. It was making a joke of all the people that buy this or that to make themselves look like everyone else, but that doesn't please God because if he wanted us all to look the same it would have been that way... I understand this concept. It's just a matter of applying it those days when you just feel... well.. UGLY! =D