CONVOOOOOO

I love convo when we actually have a good speaker!! LOL. I like it when people preach rather than just come up and tell us their testimony. SO today's convo was good even though I have heard this sermon 4 times this semester. LOL. I swear I could preach Genesis 37-42 the whole way through... I have before too, to my dad [artie] this semester. But the speaker today put more of an emphasis on not giving up on your dreams. Never quitting, no matter what. In school, relationships, sports, etc.. I was just thinking about all the times I have quit. I am like the all time quiter. Only one time in my life did I stick with it and that was soccer, and I loved it! I wish I could just push myself like I did then, now! =[ I have had so many dreams, so many goals, yet I have accomplished none, nothing.. I want to play soccer whether it's intramural or for the school like I just want to play! I want to graduate from Liberty w/ a spanish teaching degree and get my masters! I want to go and work in an orphangage in Bolivia. I want to get married before or at least right after I graduate.. I NEED to wait to have kids until I'm about 28 and I have accomplished all these things so I will be financially stable and have time for my children! I want to be an outstanding woman of Christ. I want to glorify the Lord's name in everything I say and do! I want to be a godly example for my Husband and my children. I want to impact thousands of peoples lives for the name of Christ!

PEER EVALUATION

What are some things you missed? I missed a part in the intro. She had her thesis, instead of a thesis question. I missed personal pronouns and pronoun-antecedent agreement.
What do you need to look more closely at for your essay and your peers? personal pronouns and pronoun-antecedent agreement.
How did your peer review help you? Not a whole lot, but it did help.
What specific advice did he/she give and how did it impact your first draft? personal pronouns and some structure.
What grade do you thing he/she earned for his/her efforts and insight? mm probably an 80-85? It was a lot more verbal though than actually written down..

I feel like writing..pt 2

So anyways to get back on track at my original point about being confused.. My # 7 is Nathan, and I really hope this is my one and only and my last b/c I CAN NOT HANDLE ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP! [I probably shouldn't be putting this all online but I just gotta get all these thoughts out.] I'm just scared. like not even scared. I'm TERRIFIED. I'm so sick of getting burned. I'm so sick of pouring my heart and soul into something and then the person changes or becomes a psycho-path. LOL. I'm sick of in the beginning being treated like a princess only for a month or two later be treated like the scraps you toss down your garbage disposal. Like I put Nathan on this pedestal right, and this weekend it just fell to the ground and smashed into a thousand pieces. I'm not saying I lost love for him or that we are over. I am just saying I have my guard up now and I HATE IT. I absolutely hate it. Like writing this write now. I feel pain, agony, I feel like my heart was sitting on that pedestal when it smashed to pieces... I just feel like crying and never stopping but I have shed so many tears that I can't cry anymore. I want to trust, I want to love, FREELY. The thing that sucks the most is I can hear "I love you" a million and 1 times a day but until I see that. I won't believe it, not anymore. I need security to know that I am the only woman that matters in his life [except his mom, cause she rocks, well all his female family memebers are excluded lol] and I don't know if he can give that to me, and it hurts.. it hurts really bad..

I feel like writing..pt 1

Tonight is just one of those nights were you are so overflowing w/ emotions you feel like you could right a 300 page novel. LOL I have been majorly slacking in my academics and not pushing myself to my maximum capability. But, something is going on inside of me and I'm not sure what to feel or how to feel and I just really feel CONFUSED.. I have been in many relationships were I felt like I was "in love" about 6 I would say. Half of them were like puppy PUPPY love. like middle school sweethearts LOL. But half of them were pretty serious. I dated 1 guy on and off 2 years, of pure hell. But when you love somebody you don't care about the consequences you just can't help but love them. But he hurt me REALLY bad. The 2 one was 7 months, He was and is one of my best friends. I broke up w/ him b/c I was 16 and he wanted to like marry me ASAP. LOL. He was 19.. I reallllllly really hurt him. bad. to the point where he was not eating and when he did eat he would throw up. It was terrible but some how he saw past that later and now He IS married w/ a beautiful baby girl Gabby. and we are still BFF. the 3rd was the STUPIDEST relationship I have EVER gotten myself into. The whole relationship was long distance, We saw each other like 5 days a month and we dated for 6 months. By the 3rd month he started to annoy me so much w/ his ignorance I could have shot him!! NO LIE! But I didn't understand why I felt that way b/c I thought I liked him soo much. But in reality I didn't know him at all. So our 3rd month was really like our 3rd time seeing each other.. He kept fallin more and love and I just wanted to get rid of him! I tried to overlook things b/c sometimes I felt like I was too harsh, but then he got me a ring, and I broke up w/ him before he gave it to me. He went psycho threw it at me.. then 3 weeks later we started going to the same school [ Liberty] and he called the cops on me to get the ring back? yea.. PSYCCHOOOO LOL

Prayer groups!

Tonight we had prayer groups a little differently.. We went to starbucks. Originally we were suppose to go and talk there. But everyone had exams or big projects due so we just rushed in ordered and dipset. However, it didn't seem rushed. To be honest I was really dreading it and trying to come up w/ an excuse not to go.. LOL But I did anyways. I enjoyed myself. We were 6 girls in one volvo. one word; INTERESTING! haha I can be somewhat.. judgmental, especially w. girls. I think everybody is stuck up and all they care about is themselves so I run from "girlfriends". But I did have fun. I really have not liked one of my RA's this semester cause the few times we have talked she has been snappy and quiet frankly seemed rude. But tonight she came w/ us and she is pretty cool. I learned she actually has a heart! LOL I know that seems a little extreme but seriously.. she was like so rude to me in the beginning. She talked to me about my surgery and I dunno if she just felt bad for me or what? but she was nice for like 1 time the whole semester. LOL. I know I sound kinda mean, but you dunno her!! LOL

Feeling pretty..

GAY! This morning man, I just felt like crap. Have you ever had those mornings were you just wake up and you don't want the world to see you? This morning I had to finish up my Outline so I woke up @ 8. But I really felt like I have been looking like crap lately so I wanted to doll myself up. However, as I finished my make-up, got dressed and looked in the mirror. I thought to myself I will never be happy enough. No make-up, no clothes... they will not make me happy. Lots of girls hide behind this stuff to make themselves feel better. But in reality they feel like crap. The days when I look like a complete scrub are my favorite because I am so comfortable that I can just be me! But for whatever reason I have been feeling insecure lately and I wanted to "look pretty"... I got a lot of compliments today LOL. But all the compliments in the world won't make you feel better unless you believe you are truly beautiful. I went into EVAN today and it was pretty ironic that Mrs. Rose made us watch a kids cartoon basically explaining that God created us as individuals for a reason; on purpose. It was making a joke of all the people that buy this or that to make themselves look like everyone else, but that doesn't please God because if he wanted us all to look the same it would have been that way... I understand this concept. It's just a matter of applying it those days when you just feel... well.. UGLY! =D

Halloween..

I think this Halloween was the worst ever..It was so boring.. Usually every Halloween I go trick or treating. I didn't care how old I was. I would dress up anyway. Last year I dressed up as an angel and volunteered at our town mall giving out candy to kids. It was fun cause I worked w/ my friends. I remember when I was like 13, everybody thought we were too old then HAHA. I went trick or treating until I was 16 years old..yea It was fun though. I love halloween. I love dressing up like that. I'm gonna be one of those 45 year olds that still goes to costume parties haha. One Halloween I think I was like 9 or 10. I dressed up as Xena WARRIOR PRINCESS! hahahaha. I had it specially made by one of my moms friends lol It was the coolest costume I have ever worn. I love Halloween

Mi Nathan

Imagine if the pillow that I cried on was his chest
And the tissue that I wiped my face with was his hand
imagine if I needed advice about some other guy, He's the one that comes to mind
Not try’na tell nobody that he's just a friend
Just try’na make sure he's that body that I call my man
And anytime I need a shoulder, it’s mine night or day
Well, what I’m try’na say is..

I want him to be, the last number I call late at night
Said I want him to be, the first one that I dial when I open my eyes
Want him to be the one I run to, want him to be the one that ain’t gon' hurt me
I want him to be...

I want him to be the man makin' my girls jealous
Be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas
Whatever I need..
My soldier, My friend, or My lover
I want him to be my everything..

Have you ever been hurt by a loved one?

I think that is the worst kind! When the people you love the most hurt you...I think sometimes we hurt the people closest to us because we assume that they will always be there no matter what for us. Like at times I can be somewhat disrespectful to my mom because when we talk on the phone she always says it's really loud and she can't hear me. IT BUGS THE CRAP OUT OF ME! LOL I always get an attitude when she does that. But I'm gonna try to stop sometimes I just scream "I GOTTA GO!" because she annoys me so bad. But I love her, more than anything or anyone in this world. Yet I do that to her often..I really tried to NOT do it over this Thanksgiving Break because I realize how rude I have been sometimes but.. it didn't work out that well.. I did better, but not perfect LOL I feel really bad but sometimes I feel like I can't help it!! But the point of this blog is that someone hurt me.. someone that I am REALLY close with. I thought I could trust them, but it has brought to my attention that I can't.. It sucks. When you start trusting people. friends. boyfriends.family. Errr you just want to shoot em!!! LOL When people break your trust a few things go through your mind..1) Should I say something? 2) Should I stay quiet? 3) IF I say something, should I get angry 4) Am I able to stay calm? 5) Am I gonna cry if I talk about it? OR 6)SHOULD I NOT TALK TO THEM ANY MORE AT ALL?!?!... I am kinda asking myself all these questions right now, but I don't have any answers to them =[

Since I have come to Liberty

Since I have come to Liberty me and my dad have gotten closer. We talk a lot more often! and I love it! Me and my dad write each other e-mails every week or every other week. I have never talked to each other that often in my life other than before my parents seperated..which that really wasn't talking because I was 4 and under..My dad has become more like a dad. He writes me letters giving me advice about friends and choices I make about boys, and school. I like being able to talk to him about stuff like that. He just sent me some pics of my brother and my sister. My brother's football team went to the pee wee's super bowl LOL. It's so cute they are so serious about it. I like this pic of the team because my dad looks so happy he is the coach farthest to the right. These kids look like some beasts! hahah

Thanksgiving

In previous blogs I talked about how I wasn't really too happy about going home for the holiday.. However, now that I am staying with my mom I am happy to be home. My mom has a job now where we can spend more time together so I have gotten to spend a lot more time w/ my mom and I like it :D It's been a while since me and her just got to spend time together. My g-ma is coming over today and she is bringin all the dressings :D lol She is bringin green beans, ham, and mashed tators! I bought the pumpkin pie and whip cream :D I am so hungry right now my mouth is salivating typing this up. She obviously isn't here yet :[ but she will be soon. So I didn't have to go through bein with all my other fam this year. Thank the Lord. lol My family is just so mean, and I just got out of surgery, so I don't want to deal with them. I am suppose to leave this saturday at 7:30 which means I have to get up at like 5. annd tomorrow I am suppose to go shopping w. my mom soo i'm really excited about that :D!!!!!!!!

Surgery..:-] pt 2.

The nurse said "how do you feel?" and I said "it hurts". So she said she was going to give me sum pain medicine through my IV then I fell back asleep for a little bit and she asked me again and I said I can still feel it a little bit.. so she gave me some more. I kept going in and out. I felt like I hadn't slept in years.. Finally after 3 or 4 times of going back to sleep I woke up and asked the nurses for some water because my throat was soooo dry. Then they brought me over to a room close by and asked me to get out of the bed and get in this recliner to eat some crackers and drink apple juice. Then they gave me another pain pill for the ride home. My mom came in and I got dressed and they brought me a wheel chair and wheeled me to my moms car..I was soooooo tired even more so then cause of the pain pills but i was hungry too so we stopped at Wendy's :D I only got to eat half of the sandwich before i was out like a light! I then slept for 2 more hours.. I eventually had to wake up because my dogs kept trying to climb over me to get to my sandwich! But after all I still didn't have any pain really. It is awkward getting up and sitting down sometimes but not really painful.. I'm glad I had it done because I needed it! and God is good :D

Surgery.. :-\ pt. 1

I had to have surgery yesterday. I was sooooooooooooooooo scared LOL. Let me tell you what, I had never been more scared for anything in my life. I told everybody I knew to pray for me, even people who weren't christians.. LOL I wanted as much prayer as possible so that I would be okay. So I went in to the hospital at 10:06 am and I assumed we were gonna be waiting there forever because my appt. wasn't until 12. But nope! As soon as I got there they took me straight to the back. I had to get completely undressed and where this little hospital gown [so gay]. The lady told me to leave the front open and then a diff nurse came back to talk to me and started laughing at me because i put it on wrong.. LOL Anyways so then she started asking me all these medical questions and told me to take out my earings cause I was trying to wait until the last minute to take them out so they wouldn't close. Then they put the IV in my hand... I got lucky because they gave me a shot to numb my hand first. After the put the IV in, my mom got to come back and talk to me. We talked for a while and then I saw Dr. Shah and he asked me if I had any more questions before I went back and I told him no. So another nurse came by and said ok, I'm gonna give you the "happy stuff" now. The next thing I only remember was them movin me from that bed to a diff bed and I had to kinda roll over..Then the next thing I remember was waking up in a bed in a room where these two nurses were just chatting and I kept thinking as I was waking up is it over? How do I know if it is over? and I felt some cramps so thats when I knew..

Something I learned OUTSIDE of school...

One thing that I have to praise Nathan for is something that he taught me. Nathan taught me that worth of my body.. I have heard many sermons, read many scriptures, watched many public service annoucements, had many parental discussions, all about sex. However, Nathan is the only one that got through to me. Nathan has a HUGEEEE respect for himself, and women. Nathan has taught me to have respect for my body and to love myself for who I am! I think that is one of the reasons I love him soo much. No man has ever had a discussion w/ me and said things like that. Nathan also has talked to me about how I need to be shameless about my body. Not like displaying it for all to see... but He has taught me that I should love myself for who I am because I am beautiful inside and out. Nathan will forever be in my heart no matter where we are, what we become, or where we go... Man. How can someone make such an impact, in so little time. Nathan is amazing man. He really is. I think it took hearing it from an actual man, saying it to me and meaning it that really got into my heart and soul. If for some reason God doesn't want us to be w/ each other in the future.. Whoever he marries is one heck of a lucky gal....

mannnnnnn

I just got done reading Nathan's blogs. Ugh you have no idea how bad it hurts me to not be w/ him. Especially when I read how much he cares about me. It makes me feel like crap!!! If I could do anything, My one wish would just be to make him smile, and be happy and if that would require him forgetting me. I would want it to be that way... As hard as it is for me to say that its true. I just want him to be happy! I don't want him to be sad. Or feel like he is not good enough. He is my everything! I can't put into words what he means to me.... It's hard to get him to understand this concept concidering the circumstances, but it's true! Everything I have done with or for Nathan, I have done to make him HAPPY. and my heart like wants to be w/ him. But I know if I did, it would ruin a future for us. I feel like we both need this. I feel like if we were to stay w. each other both of us would drift farther away from God and school. I got really crappy grades lately on all the last few assignments and tests and quizzes that I have done. I know I could have done wayyyyyy better, but I didn't. I can't blame Nathan because it's not his fault I am so in love w/ him. But for my sake I need to mature and for his sake. What would happen if I never matured or got my priorities straight?! I would continue to just do things to make him happy and where would I be? I would continue to offer him things, that I don't have the option to offer and just say things to make him happy. errrrrrrr I'm just so full of emotions I'm just gonna explode...

What in the world am I gonna do?!

Ugh why does life have to be so complicated? lol I broke up w/ Nate. It sucks. Like I'm glad because now I feel like I will have more time w/ God and for school and everything feels good. Then, I see him, and my heart melts, like one of those huge sticks of butter when you stick in the microwave after only 30 seconds! lol Seriously, how can I not? I love everything about him, as you can tell from previous blogs. I'm just trying to figure out how I move on from here? I want to be w/ him in the future I just know neither of us is ready for this relationship yet. I honestly believe we would have the best relationship and family ever. I know because we already did. We still have never fought or argued. which I mean it's only been like a month so thats not THAT big of a deal, but I dunno I just care about him so much. I don't like to see him sad. I know if I was on the other end I would be really upset too. But we both need to see this as an opportunity to grow as well so that we CAN be w/ each other in the future. I miss him when he's away, but when I'm with him, I am scared. Because my heart pounds like it's about to explode I just want to hug him so tightly and never let go. I want him to know how much I care about him. But I think it is hard for him to understand because I broke up with HIM... I hope that we can get passed this depression we both are undergoing right now, so that we can have fun together like normal... :[

Thanksgiving break... :[

I am soooo not excited about Thanksgiving break. I don't want to go home AT ALL. I really wanted to spend Thanksgiving break w. Nathan and his family, but my mom booked my surgery for Thanksgiving so I have to go. I don't want to go because 1) I hate flying standby 2) I want to be w/ Nathan 3) I want to be w/ Nathan's family 4) I hate FL in Fall because it's so boring and ugly. 5)I don't want to have surgery and 6) My family is a bunch of PSYCHOPATHS!:D

Like you don't understand how much I don't like my family on holidays. Everyone is always argueing with each other and trying to prove each other wrong, or see who has more than the other person financially. It's like a contest to them, but in the end.. what does it really matter?? Honestly? What are they proving? to who? and why? Why can't they just spend the time loving each other and caring for one another? I do miss my grandma though. I think most of my family is going to my Papa's but really I would like to spend Thanksgiving w. my nanny... she is so sweet and kind. She is not like everyone else in the family. She understands me and supports me in everything I do. and I miss her. Which is weird because it didn't even cross my mind that I would.. but I now realize how much I was seeing her when I was home.

Saturday & Sunday

Saturday and Sunday seemed to kind of fly by and mesh together. Saturday Natjhan and I woke up pretty late, around 11 am and I got in the shower,went to the tanning bed, and got some milk for Nathan. Then, I swung by his dorm and picked him up to go to the game vs. VMI. We had fun at the game. We stayed there for most of it, but towards the end it got kind of chilly so we left. We had kettle corn there, it was soooo good. I love real kettle corn because they add salt and sugar which gives it this sweet flavor. Every year back home me n my mom go to the state fair JUST to have the kettle corn! haha. Anyways after the game Nathan and I kinda just searched for things to do to spend time together. Then Sunday we both woke up even later than the day before! We woke up at 12! We both were really upset because we wanted to go to church. So we went to breakfast and had eggs bacon and pancakes. It was pretty good, but not as good as we had hoped for. Then we were just searching for stuff to do again so we decided to do some homework together. We went up to the windgate hotel because it has an overhang that looks off all of Lynchburg. We like to go there sometimes to eat or just sit and talk because it is such a beautiful sight. We then played the game LIFE, which Nathan won for the first time haha. Then I had practice for this skit that I am trying out for coffeehouse. After that Nathan and I went to the movies again and saw No reservations which is also a movie about a chef. It was a really cute movie.

Friday

Sooo I spent Friday night w/ my boo DUHHH lol after class I planned on doing some homework by myself; however, I was captivated by Nathan's charm so much that I could not resist spending time with him. We went to the dollar movie theater and saw Ratatoullie. It was a cute movie about a rat that longed to be a professional cook. After the movie Nathan and I went to my favorite restaurant in Lynchburg, Pueblo Viejo. They have the best mexican food ever. It was fun because I got to talk to the waitor in Spanish. Then he started TRYING to talk to Nathan, but nathan just looked over at me, puzzled. The waitor asked Nathan if he thought I was beautiful, and if I was his girlfriend. I had chimichanga's w/ beans and cheese. They also always serve you chips and dip. They have this mayonaise based sauce that they serve with salsa, It is soooo good! It is Nathan's favorite. But it later gave me and Nathan really bad gas! Haha.

Before there was Liberty..

High School really sucked for me. I hated the fake people, the drama, and the stupid USELESS work we did. I got pretty good grades in High School A's and B's. I always tried to get straight A's but I guess didn't try hard enough. I would always have like all A's and 1 stupid B! lol But then we had stupid tests like FCAT and SAT and ACT's errr I did soooo terrible on them! I hate test's like these. Because of my low scores, I thought I wasn't smart enough to come to a University. I had planned on staying home and going to Edison, a community college about 7 minutes from my house. But then I met my ex, Darren, and he convinced me that he too had really bad grades and he was doing fine here. Which I found out at the end of the semester he failed almost everyone of his classes so that really wasn't true. But anyhow by that time I had already told myself I was going to Liberty and had all my financial check-in done and classes set up. So I came to Liberty all worried about the work and what kind of grades I was going to get. However; I have been busily studying and doing all of my work to the best of my ability so I have all A's right now and one STUPID C! lol It's in Old Testemant. I really like the class and learning its just a lot to remember when tests come around. But I really do like it even though the first week of school I hated it lol. But I am really glad I came here because I am doing really well. I need to have more confidence in myself. I am smart girl and there is nothing that I can't accomplish if I whole-heartidly put myself to it!

The drive-in

I love drive-ins. Don't you? I went to a couple back home in Florida. We use to have one, but I think about 2-3 years ago they tore it down. I was highly dissappointed. However, this weekend I got to go to one again. I was speaking with Nathan's mom friday night about things to do in P Mt., NC. and she brought up the fact that they had a drive-in movie theater not to far from there. So we decided to go out and see a movie saturday night around 8:30. We had planned on it just being Nathan and I but as soon as his younger sister Jazz heard we were going she wanted to come along as well. Right when we hopped in the car Nathan told me he she wanted to go but he told her no. So I got out of the car and told her to come on. We had a lotta fun. We had like absolutely NO CLUE what was gonna pop up on the screen but we went anyway. It ended up being that new Bee Movie. At first I was like oh great, how gay. I hate cartoons or animated stuff but it was cute and funny. We laughed at all the stupid jokes they added into the movie. Afterwards they annouced that the food stand was open and I wanted some food but it was too cold so we decided to go to Nathan and I's favorite place to eat, "The Cookout". Oh my goodness it is sooooo good. I love the cookout lol The have the best fries i have ever eating in my life! and Sweet Tea!! mmmmmhmm lol

Frustration...

So I'm just a little frustrated right now. lol. I just foung out I have 2 exams next week and a presentation due. So that is just blessed. In addition, this morning I had a quiz in GNED on a reading I had no clue about; I wrote it in my planner, but I never opened it. So that was equally as blessed. ummm I have a essay and 2 exercises to do for my english class tonight. 2 chapters to read in my youth book and 2 chapters to read for O.T. annnnd a bunch of new spanish words to learn. OH AND I have two witness reports I need to fill out for next week and 2 verse quizes. So ya know the Lord is just rich in his blessings this week. haha I have been trying to read more of my devotionals a day and exercise but now all that is down the drain concidering I will be working like a dog the next 2 weeks! And then on top of that I am having surgery the week after all of this haha how fun!!!! Then 2 weeks after that I am leaving my boyfriend for 6 months because I am moving to Bolivia sooooooooooooo I am just really excited man. NOT. I feel like an elephant is playing jump-rope on my heart. Sooooo I'm just going to take a BIG HUGE GI-NORMOUS BREATH OF AIR and smile and say everything is gonna be ok. :D

I CAN'T HELP IT!!

You know there are many things in life that you try to fight so hard. Lots of times they are the things you are absolutely against and you tell yourself "I will never do this" or "I will never do that.." But then one day that all changes.. Your walls drop and your find yourself spinning. In the beginning of the semester I told myself I was going to be single, that no matter what I wouldn't date anybody. Now I find myself falling in love with this incredible man. It's like he grabbed a hold of my heart and I just couldn't hold myself to it. I tried breaking up with him lol but it didn't really work out. Everyday that goes by I love him more and more. It seems way to soon to be feeling this way and I don't want to get on this "love high" and then it dwindle down after a couple months. I want to love him forever. I want to know what that word means. I love everything about Nathan. He is such a gentleman. His mom raised him well. Granted, sometimes he is lazy and wants me to do stuff for him. lol but that's a typical man. I'm sure if he was willing to do everything for me too I would always ask him to do stuff for me instead of me ever getting up. And he does do a lot for me. I have noticed during the past weeks that he does more and more for me everyday. I don't just love him for his random acts of love, or they fact that he says the words. I love the person I am with him; carefree and happy. We can have so much fun together. We laugh at the stupidest, randomist things, but I love it. I love how much we have in common and the fact that we can spend like 5 hours together and then call each other on the phone and talk for another hour only getting off the phone because we have to get up early in the morning... I love the way when I see him my heart skips a beat or the fact that sometimes when I think about how much I care for him I feel like I have a 50 lb. weight on my chest. lol I know to most people that's not a good feeling to have but he makes me speechless and at the same time I want to say so much that the words can't come out fast enough. He makes me feel like skipping, and dancing at the same time. Some of the things HE says just make me almost faint just because I am blown away with his character. I think I am done for now because I am starting to have heart-palpitations lol

Four wheeling with Nathan

We finally got to go four-wheeling but we couldn't ride on anything but the road because Nathan's dad didnd't want us getting it "dirty"? lol Um but we still had fun. We drove up and down the roads near his house. Only to get chanced by crazy dogs and run over a baby snake (on accident). Nathan started crying because it was pretty cold outside and his eyes couldn't handle all the cold wind. We stop and took some pictures together and some picture of the scenery. I had fun holding onto him as we flew by the houses.Afterwards Nathan and I explored his property and walked by the creeks and into the woods a little bit. I was really scared because the day before his mom had shown me 2 black widows that his dad caught by the water. But Nathan now being my brave hero now, he made me feel safe (haha). I love spending time with Nathan doing stuff like this because it is something we both enjoy. I cant't wait to go fishing with him though. It is most likely that I will not be able to go fishing with him until I return from Bolivia because it is so cold now.

This Sunday w/ "my super hero"

This weekend was very um eventful... lol Well Sunday was like the highlight of the weekend. We have wanted to go four-wheeling for the past month now, but Nathan's dad was like procrastinating charging the battery because he didn't want us to ride it. However, this sunday he finally went out to the garage and started to charge it. As he was in the garage I decided to uhmm make some "nachos" lol My mom use to always broil tortilla chips with cheese in the oven for a few minutes so they would be crunchy and dip them in salsa. well while I was preparing the salsa Nathan started talking to me and distracted me, but then the phone rang so Nathan answered it. and I remembered the nachos in the oven. So I ran over to the oven as I saw smoke coming from the top of it, I flung open the oven and screamed to Nathan as I saw that the nachos were on FIRE!!! hahah it was funny, but not really funny... Nathan turns into my super hero as he grabs a hand towel and rushes to the oven grabbing the pan running outside with it. The flames flew higher, as Nathan began to fan the fire. He eventually realized that wasn't working and ran in the house to grab a cup of water, As I stood in the kitchen with my jaw to the floor in awe of what just had happened, it finally went out. I glanced up at my prince charming and chuckled at the thought of how silly it was.

Public vs. Private

i think there is a huge difference between public schools and private christian schools. In grades k-12 I was in public school and now I attend a private christian university. There is a huge difference in the education, responsibilities, and spirituality. The teachers in public school seem to not be as challenging as private school teachers because the majority of the kids in public school don't care and act up in class. As a result, the students who want to learn aren't learning to their full potential. In addition, in public schools there is no structure, or morals. There are rules, but they are rarely enforced by anyone.Their campuses allow drinking, smoking, no curfew, or any rules about movies, or PDA. In private schools it is very strict and there are many more rules. For example, no watching rated R movies, no PDA besides hand-holding, no cursing, strict dress-code, and a 12 o' clock curfew. Also, there is a big division between spirituality in public schools and private schools. In public schools spirituality is looked down upon. They laugh at Christians and say things like "Oh, she's a goody-good." The also tend to bring Christians down, or tempt Christians just to see what they really believe. Many times this results in sin. On the contrary, in a private Christian school Christians are encouraged daily about their faith and are supported in fighting temptations in many ways. Not only do they support your faith they have many outreaches in order for you to demonstrate your beliefs to others.

FL vs. VA

There are a lot of differences between FL and VA like the scenery and the people. In FL, the weather is usually rainy, or humid in the fall. In VA, the weather is windy, and cool. In FL, the terraine is very flat, with lots of trees. In VA, the terraine is high, and has lots of mountains.