What, what! lol I am in Pilot Mt., NC. at Nates house with his fam. his mom is really nice; we talked last night I am trying to convince her to let Nate go to Bolivia with me for Christmas. It would be totally AWESOME! lol I dunno I kind of have mixed feelings about Nate. He is a nice guy, very good looking, smart, ambitous, he has a lot of good qualities... but, sometimes I feel like he can be very selfish. But I dunno if I can blame him, His mom does everything for him so he never feels like doing anything for anybody and he always wants somebody doing something for him. Maybe I am passing judgement too quickly. We have only been talking what like 2 or 3 weeks? When I met him, what attracked me to him what the fact that he seemed to care about others.... but I dunno maybe he is just joking around with me when he says he doesn't want to do anything. I dunno I guess I have to give it time. I still have a lot to learn about him. I like Nate, I do; however, I dunno if it could work out for the long run because of that selfish quality that I see [whether or not that is really true, it might not be] but another factor is he has so much potential to run intimately with and beside God but he is settling for neutral. We have had many talks online about his beliefs and where he stands in his heart for his love of God and it is deep. Sometimes it is just hard for us to show it. like this weekend I really haven't been the best example of a God fearing woman myself. Me and Nate kissed and I'm not even his girlfriend... what kind of example am I setting? what am I showing him? Not Christ who dwells in me, but my own flesh. which isn't good. I just don't know what to do... I guess we will just coast and see where things go from here.
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