Just on my mind...

Well I dunno I think I seriously might have manic depression. I still go from extreme highs to lows. Like just yesterday I was in a really good mood pretty much ever since I got on the plane to come home but now I just feel like I have nothing to be happy about. I have been thinkin about Terrance a lot. I missed him this weekend :[ lol He is like my BFF and I really didn't think I would miss him as much as I did. I have been really mean to my mom for like no reason. I dunno why I do that, she does so much for me. Like she has no money and she took me shopping sunday and spent like 300 dollars on me! I dunno why my mom buys me all this stuff when I don't need it but she does... and thats why I love her. But I dunno I think she is starting to get hard of hearing or something everytime I'm on the phone with her she repeats what I say but she hears the wrong thing. I just don't understand and it really irritates me and I get an attitude with her and I feel bad about it but sometimes I can't help it. plus I'm on my rag soooo I dunno.