The hardest thing ever.

today sucked so bad. ugh. I had to break up with Nathan today. I like him so much, we have sooo much in common. He is like perfect for me. But God keeps telling me no. I don't know why, I just know that there is a reason why I feel that way and everything happens for a reason. I have to have my WHOLE heart in Bolivia. I can't be split in two. I just checked my myspace and facebook and he already changed his status to single and it really sucks cause I hate this. But I know there is a reason, I dunno why, but I know I had to do it. I mean I can still hang out with him, we are about to watch a movie together, but he said he has to talk to me about something so that kind of makes me nervous :-? I wonder what it's about? I dunno, this just sucks... ;[