Supervisors

I have had many different jobs and at all of them I have had completely different types of supervisors. My very first job I had a very bad supervisor. I had only worked there a month and the 45 year old cook tried to kiss me in the freezer and he wouldn't leave me alone so I told my boss about it and he didn't do anything about it. After that, the cook intentionally messed up my food and always cooked it last. Finally, I broke down and started crying and the boss started yelling at me! Of course, I quit. Another job I worked at I had started out having managers that were really strict, but they left and the new manager I got was awesome. He too was strict; however, he liked to joke around with his employee's and made sure we had a good time at work. He made work fun to go to. Even to this day I go back and have good conversations with him.

This weekend

Ahhh! This weekend was soo relaxing. Seriously, I wish I was back in NC right now! Friday, We got there at like 7:30 cause we had stopped in Greensboro to see Nathan's sister, Daniel. I really love it at his families house though. When we got there they had chicken, green beans, corn, and biscuits for dinner. OH MY GOSH! IT WAS SOOO GOOD! lol. That night we had fun just relaxing watching tv and hangin out together. It's so nice to get off campus and just hang out together and relax. Like there is no where on-campus where we can just relax together. It sucks. But yea then Saturday we woke up and drove like 20 minutes just to go to waffle house, lol it was really good though! then we did some homework and got ready to go to A&T's Homecoming concert, it was tiiiieeeeeeghhhhttt. lol in the beginning I was kinda shy, and nervous to like dance around Nate, and I wanted to loosen up, but by the time I started really diggin the music all I could think about what big fluffy beds, and the feeling of my insides eating away at itself cause I was so hungry lol. I really enjoyed LiL Wayne though. That was really cool, I had never been to a concert like that before and I'm really glad I went. I was so tired though that as we left, I had to have Nate drive cause I knew I wasn't going to make it back to the house safely. I propped my feet up and crashed. I really liked it though because as we were drivin back I kept dozin in and out but everytime I woke up Nate was looking at me, or he would grab my hand, or put his arm around me. I don't think he realizes how much those little things mean to me, but they do. I think it is sooo sweet. Or like when I wake up in the morning and he tells me I'm beautiful.. I could just melt in his arms! lol

I wish I was older!!!

I love this topic, it's so funny to me. I can remember birthday after birthday.. some years, even ON my birthday.. I would be like yes! I can't wait til next year when I'm ... years old! lol I think it started when I was like 11... I was dating a guy that was 13.. ahah I thought I was so cool. But I couldn't wait until I was 13, 12 was a awkward year because its like in between 11 (your really young) and 13 ( when you start to go through puberty). Then when I was 13 I thought, I am still young.. I will know I'm older when I'm 15.. then 15 came and I couldn't wait til my 16th birthday! My 16th birthday sucked. I was in Ohio with a boyfriend and he didn't even get me a cake, or a card.. he got drunk and passed out while I had to take care of him! 17 was awkward because I felt like I was pretty much grown anyway but i still couldn't be concidered an adult because I wasn't officially 18.. But when I turned 18 I was like dang I'm getting so old! lol now, I think I am done with birthday's til my 21st b-day at least lol. I told myself on my 18th birthday every birthday after this I am gonna be 18 again until the year 2009 I will be just strangely turn 21 lol

My pet peeves...

There are a couple things about other people that really bother me. One, the fact that people hate to be real and would rather make someone feel good by telling them the words they know that person wants to hear instead of telling them what is really on their mind. Two, Hygene. I think it is totally gross when people don't brush their teeth twice a day, clean their ears, and take a shower when they stink ( I know it seems like common sense but some people are just NASTY! haha). Three, cleanliness. Some people like just plain don't care. I am not the cleanest person ever when it comes to cleaning to be completely honest, but I know when something has gone too far. Some people realize when they have made a big mess, but others just don't care. Or what really erks my nerves is when they diliberately go out of there way to NOT clean. Four, ignorance. People who argue with you, just to be right when they know they are wrong. A lot of people think this is also common sense, when your wrong just admit it, don't keep argue... but some people really can't do that! Ugh I think this bothers me the most because I really get angry, like I just want to smack them! Five, liars! Ughhhhhh I hate liars, I guess this includes the first and fifth pet peeve I mentioned but Man! when you lie to me, I lose it! I can no longer calm myself down and be reasonable. I either cut that person off completely or pretty much curse them out! haha. But I think that about sums it up for now...

A good laugh.

This weekend while I was in NC, Nate and I had a great time together. We have so much fun, cracking jokes, tickling each other, and just making each other laugh at random things. If you see Nate and I walking down the street most likely we will be laughing or have a really big smile on our faces. This weekend Nate tried to tickle me almost every second we were together. He thinks it's soo funny! Also, I had a lot of fun Friday night. We stayed up pretty late and we were talking about movies. We were talking about the movie the 40-year-old virgin. Ahahahaha. That movie is hilarious! We also talked about Napolean Dynamite. I love the fact that Nate and I get each others jokes. I was laughing so hard as we discussed these movies that his mom walked in a couple minutes later and said "You guys are still up?!" It was like 6 in the morning.. haha I love Nate, he's the best :P

Quiet an unpleasant experience...

So this summer I worked at Rib City. I USE to eat their food... Until one eerie day, haha. I was at work and we got these new sweet potato fries. I had tried them before and they were really good. But this one day my friend Crystal and I shared some, But I had eaten a salad previous to that. My stomach was rumbling a little bit but I just figured I was hungry or it was gas pains. Well about 3 hours later we were closing down the store and I had to literally run to the bathroom. I had the worst diarrhea of my life. I had to go to the bathroom like 3 times before I left work that night and I was starting to feel nauseous. So I got home and about 30 minutes later I was throwing up all the food I had eaten. I spent the next 24 hours throwing up everything I had aten and drank. I woke up every hour on the hour that night, even when I had nothing left in my stomach to throw up. I never ate sweet potato fries or our salads EVER again.

What's your favorite place to be?

Other than Bolivia, Mine just happens to be where I am at the moment...Nathan's House... I love the way it smells when you walk in. The scent of dinner that has been freshly prepared for Nathan by his mother Felicia. I think what is so cute is how their whole family is .... well a family. I have never had that atmosphere. The way him and his sister fight. The look on his mother's face when he walks in the house. All the hobbies and interests his family has like fishing, four-wheeling, art, his mother's love for animals, his fathers love for "kuntry-kookin", haha. The neat-ness of their home. Where there home is... Pilot Mountain, NC.. well the country type of home lol not this exact city... I dunno Nathan is really catchin my heart. Dispite the fact that he continually puts me down about every 5 seconds.. Just looking at him now, I realize what a fat head he has... juuuust kidding babe! lol hahaha No but he really is amazing, sometimes he takes my breath away. Sometimes I want to shoot him, but most of time he takes my breath away. lol I think we could have such a exciting life together. He's so.. everything I want. It really sucks that I am leaving soon but it's all in Gods plan, I suppose.

Paragraph evalutation #2

There is a pretty big difference on my outline and first draft. I added transition words and a little more detail. In draft #2, I only changed a few errors because the person checking my paragraph didn't give me advice on content, but just gave me advice on some punctuation errors. I think comment is great but I think we need more than one person to review our work because not everyone in the class has the knowledge to grade it. I still think my paragraph could be a little more interesting or better. I just don't know how. I spent about 20 minutes revising my drafts.

What memories do you wish you could make dissapear?

I have a couple. One would be the memories I have of all the negative things my dad has said to me. Another would be past relationships. I guess I wish both of those things had never happened, but they wouldn't make me into the person I am today. So I can't say I regret them, but I would say that I wish those memories would dissapear. I guess over time, well, I hope over time they will slowly start to dissolve of how vivid they stick out in my mind. Lots of bad things happen to people, whether they are good or bad. However, we have the freewill to choose to dwell on those things, or move on. I prefer to try to move on. Which, I have been starting to ever since I came to Liberty and God is working with me too on this so we will see where I am in the next couple years! :D

Do you have keepsakes?

I do. I have a lot of things that I keep, but probably shouldn't. They just take up A LOT of space in my room and my closet, haha. Um Like I have a box full of pics of all my crushes and ex-boyfriends including letters and roses. I think its really cool. I started it because I wanted to look back on old boyfriends and laugh, but I dunno now that I think about it, it's really silly. I also have stuff that I know I could never give away.. Like my mom has bought me almost everything I have except for a couple of outfits or pieces of jewelry but still there are a lot of things, trinkets that she has bought for me that i could NEVER throw out. Like I have this ballerina that is in an easter egg and you wind it up and it opens and plays music and on the front it says dance like no ones watching. I love it, and it means so much to me. i danced for like 4 or 5 years of my life and I had so much fun doing it and my mom knew that. My would always say dance like no ones watching and I will never forget that.

There are seven days in a week...

I'm gonna tell you how I feel about certain days of the week because I feel like, everyday has a theme or a way that it goes, everyweek no matter what is happening.
Monday is a day where all you want to do is sleep and lay around. Mondays = Lazy day. Tuesday, Tuesday is the day of the week were you wish it was thursday because you wish Friday was closer. Tuesdays = a day of dreaming. Wednesday, Wednesday is a day that goes by pretty fast, it's the point where you start to realize hey this week is going by pretty fast, I'm half way there! Wednesdays = a day of speeding. Thursday, Thursdays are great, they go by fast, and you usually don't have any homework.Thursdays = a night of play. Friday, Fridays are usually peoples favorite day but i think they go by slow because you can't wait until your last class is dismissed. Fridays= a day like molasses. Saturdays are my favorite, Most saturdays Nathan and I watch a DVD and hang out all day AND we get to sleep in! Saturdays= a day of rest. Sunday, Sundays are nice, but repetitive, you have church lunch, nap, and dinner. Sundays= a day of repetitiveness.

Where do you hide?

For me, there are lots of times when I like to "hide". I like to hide from a lot of things, but mostly I hide from people. There are sometimes in my life when I have so much going on that i just like to relax and think to myself. Or sometimes when I just don't want to think at all. I think that is the best part about being here at Liberty. There are so many places for you to think and contemplate things, ideas, or just to have some QT with God. This place is beautiful and my hiding place would be at the top of a mountain. I like to gaze into the sunset and think of all the things that have happened that day just to wind down. or have a quiet time with God. I dunno what it is about gaizing over peaks into the horizon that just gives me a sense of peace, of hope for beauty.

Where was everyone else?

You know those times where you just feel so alone... I remember this one time specifically. I was in 11th grade and the guy that I had been bestfriends with for 2 years started getting serious with his girlfriend and finding less time for me. I was very jealous, especially when I found out he was moving in a month, to Mississippi, with her. School got boring, and so did my life in general.I got a new job and started hanging out with some new friends. I thought it was great and I started doing all these drugs and going to the clubs on school nights and at the time it felt great. Until I stopped doing the drugs for a week and realized how alone I was. I was surrounded by people all the time, but they really weren't there for me, neither did they care about me. It really sucked. and I haven't done drugs since then. Praise the Lord. :D

So Nathan and I are back together... lol

Um I can't help it. I dunno why I felt the way I felt about the whole situation but I did anddd now we are back together and .... He's amazing. Nathan is really special to me and I really hope that it works out for the long hall because we have so much in common. Really.. like fishing, traveling, children, trust, people, lol we have the same views on everything but I am just trying to get him to understand the love and intimacy Christ wants us to have. God has so much planned for Nathan and he has given him such a good heart. I think God has placed me in his life for a reason because God has a calling on Nathans life and I think he wants me to pull out the best in him(Nathan). God works in mysterious ways. Nathan has a good heart it just took a while to get to the center of it. I think it is bound by a lot of hurt and dissapointment by humans, which is all the more reason for him to cling to Christ because God has unconditional love for us and he is always there for us, no matter who or what bad things happen to us. People of the world will continue to ALWAYS fail us, but the love of God is FOREVER!

why do people get so angry?

About a month and a half ago me and one of my bestfriends Terrance got in a pretty huge arguement. It all started at like 11:30 on a friday night. First we started talking about our purpose in life and I told him I feel called to Missionary work and he was like no you don't know what God wants bla bla bla he doesn't just speak it into your ear! and I was like no but I gave him a verse that says if you need wisdom ask your generous God and he will give it to you, he will not rebuke you for asking. and he flipped out! The point of me telling him that was that if he was unsure about his calling in life to ask God to reveal it to him. But instead he flips out and starts yelling at me about how I don't know anything about the bible and I shouldn't be quoting stuff I don't know anything about and how it has a deeper meaning than that. So we ended up getting in a heated discussion and I said how God is unchanging Malachi 3:6 and then he said that God didn't write the bible but I told him he annoited people to write about him and he said how do you know and I explained that Exodus 17:14 says how God commanded Moses to write and it was just rediculous.. we argued until 4:30 in the morning and the next day he says to me, "I knew you were right, I just didn't want to be wrong because I felt you were belittling my knowledge of the bible" I was so shocked! I couldn't believe all that time went by for no reason just because he felt like I had offended him when in reality I was trying to encourage him!

The hardest thing ever.

today sucked so bad. ugh. I had to break up with Nathan today. I like him so much, we have sooo much in common. He is like perfect for me. But God keeps telling me no. I don't know why, I just know that there is a reason why I feel that way and everything happens for a reason. I have to have my WHOLE heart in Bolivia. I can't be split in two. I just checked my myspace and facebook and he already changed his status to single and it really sucks cause I hate this. But I know there is a reason, I dunno why, but I know I had to do it. I mean I can still hang out with him, we are about to watch a movie together, but he said he has to talk to me about something so that kind of makes me nervous :-? I wonder what it's about? I dunno, this just sucks... ;[

Priorities

Priorities are so important in life and I think they are the hardest thing to keep... It's so easy to get sidetracked from your priorities, especially in college. Lately my boo is getting me sidetracked. I'm not blaming him at all, but him just being himself gets me sidetracked lol. I really like spending time with him. We have fun, and time just seems to fly by. Last night I planned on us doing a devotional together and I thought it would take like 30 minutes but it ended up taking a hour! It was really fun though because we are reading a book about Dating with a PURE passion. In the back of each chapter it asks you personal questions about your faith and how you feel about what you just read. It's really good and really fun. But my room, lol, it a desaster and my mom is comin in tomorrow so it has to be like spotless! :-\ haha annnnd I was definitely slacking on my study skills but thank the Lord I got a 90 on my CLST exam and a 98 on my EVAN.. but I just need to get it together. I'm not doing terrible, but I could do better. :D

Nathan

i dont need me a basketball player.
all i need is somebody that is down for me.
and he dont have to have money, his love
is just like honey, its so sweet to me.
he can have everything in this world,
but he sacraficied it all for me
and i've made up my mind, and it feels so real.
and i know that he wont break my heart,
and i know that we wont ever part, its time
time for us to settle down & i, wanna be
with him forever. They can say that
I am crazy, for making him my baby,
but its how its gonna be. see i've done
been through many changes. Its gonna
stay the same. I can have everything in
this world but I'll sacrafice it all for him.
& I've made up my mind. I'm in love this
time and it feels so real.

Oh baby please, I need you, so believe me
I do, and every little
thing that you do baby. They dont know
how i feel cause i know this is real.

The best and worst things about being 18

I think the best thing about being 18 is not having to work. I know not all 18 year olds are not able to NOT work, but for me this is the best cause I have worked since I was 16 5 days a week a least so for like the past 3 years I have worked all the time.. But in college I don't have anytime for anything.. especially work! All I do is do homework or study lol and go to church of course.. I love it here. Another plus is being able to travel and see different countries. Like I'm going to Bolivia next semester and I know one summer I will be doing a traveling ministry with kids in Cali and overseas and another summer I will be going to Guatemala for 2 months so I'm excited anddd I want to go to Africa before I graduate. :D The worst part of being 18 would be that my emotions go from high to low multiple times throughout the day and you are searching and trying to create the person you want to be the rest of your life. you have to make decisions about your friends, moral choices and stand firm in your beliefs without your friends influencing your decisions.

How does a day.. go bad?

Haha, I think this is the best topic EVER... How does a day go bad? Some days you know you just wake up and your realllllly tired and that can just set it off! and it seems to me that it's those days where you lack sleep that are the worst. you have mood swings, your irritable.. Most days like this start off being tired and escalate to bad hair. Forgot to do some kind of homework... missing breakfast. Late to class. Boyfriend gets an attitude. lol the list goes on and on. these are just a few examples of how my day can start off badly...

This past week

I dunno I am kind of at a stand still. I feel like I haven't gone to church in 12 years and I feel like I'm not doing bad, but I'm not doing any good either. I want to how can I say show my christianity towards nate and place God first in our relationship... I told him about this book I want us to read together yesterday and How I want to put God first in our relationship and he agrees. I think he is still a baby christian, even though he has been in the church pretty much his whole life. His parents are Christian and they are nice, but they don't live it out everyday you know what I mean. I'm not knockin his parents at all cause I think they are awesome. I just know that God has bigger plans than that for Nathan. God doesn't like to be put in a box like ok I will take God out when I am at church, or when I am at convo.. you know he wants to be out of the box and walking with us ALL THE TIME! God is sooo amazing and I want to walk with him all the time too! I just feel like a lot of my thoughts have been focuse on Nathan and not so much God. Soo we are gonna have to clear this up and get me and Nathan on a good start, on the right track to successfully walking with God :D

My Mom

My mom is my best friend and she is my hero. My mom has always been there for me through all the good, the bad, and the ugly. i know you are probably thinking "and? so what? ...Mom's are supposed to do that," But these days not very many do. My mom has always made sure I had everything i need and more. growing up she didn't have much but somehow she managed to provide everything and more for me. I can't remember the last time my mom just went shopping for herself. She would come in to work early, leave late, and work saturdays, just to ensure that I had everything I wanted. My mom has worked her butt off for me and she is in debt up to her neck because of me. whenever something comes up like college bills, doctor bills, or really anything that I need help with she is there to back me up, even when she knows she can't afford it. Also, my mom has stuck beside me through all my rebellion. she has never given up on me. some parents get to a point where they can't take it anymore and just say "oh, i don't care what my child does anymore!" but not my mom. My mom stays strong in the hard times. She persiveers through everything, no matter what. My mom has taught me a lot about life. Shes taught me how to be independent so that i can also stand on my own two feet.

My comfy place...

In someones arms... I know I probably shouldn't be writting this is my blog. But it's true. like... speaking of Nate. haha um I feel so much comfort in his arms. He's tall, handsom, has a ROCKIN BOD! lol and when he holds me... ugh I could just melt. Nothing is more comfortable than being in the arms of a man... I don't know why I feel that way I just do. The second best thing is eatin My Mom's grill cheese and spaghetti O's. haha It's my comfort food. It's the best thing to eat when you are feeling the worst.. that and ice cream, DUHH! lol Another place I feel, not so much comfortable, but happy... is at the Haven of Hope Orphanage in Santa Cruz, Bolivia. It's the best place in the world... I can't think of anywhere else that could bring me more happiness than when I am there. It just sucks when I am there in the fact that I can't see or really even talk with my mom.. But I love the kids sooooooooo much. I can't wait til this christmas!!!!!!!

North Carolina

What, what! lol I am in Pilot Mt., NC. at Nates house with his fam. his mom is really nice; we talked last night I am trying to convince her to let Nate go to Bolivia with me for Christmas. It would be totally AWESOME! lol I dunno I kind of have mixed feelings about Nate. He is a nice guy, very good looking, smart, ambitous, he has a lot of good qualities... but, sometimes I feel like he can be very selfish. But I dunno if I can blame him, His mom does everything for him so he never feels like doing anything for anybody and he always wants somebody doing something for him. Maybe I am passing judgement too quickly. We have only been talking what like 2 or 3 weeks? When I met him, what attracked me to him what the fact that he seemed to care about others.... but I dunno maybe he is just joking around with me when he says he doesn't want to do anything. I dunno I guess I have to give it time. I still have a lot to learn about him. I like Nate, I do; however, I dunno if it could work out for the long run because of that selfish quality that I see [whether or not that is really true, it might not be] but another factor is he has so much potential to run intimately with and beside God but he is settling for neutral. We have had many talks online about his beliefs and where he stands in his heart for his love of God and it is deep. Sometimes it is just hard for us to show it. like this weekend I really haven't been the best example of a God fearing woman myself. Me and Nate kissed and I'm not even his girlfriend... what kind of example am I setting? what am I showing him? Not Christ who dwells in me, but my own flesh. which isn't good. I just don't know what to do... I guess we will just coast and see where things go from here.

Nate... again :D

lol I love the title. haha Um so last night me and Nate were working on our english homework together; we met up at like 7:15. I thought it was just gonna be a quick 15 minute thing but I ended up hanging out with him until 11:50 last night!!! We had so much fun! I was trying to see his feet cause he always cracks on my little pinky toe. So, I was trying to take off his shoes and somehow for like the next hour or 2 I spent falling and pushin him down the hill and chasing him around. It was so much fun lol I felt like I was a lil kid again chasing boys around the play ground haha. Then some how I ended up wrapped up in his arms? and I really liked it. I talked to him about a couple different things and there a lot of great qualities about him. Like he brushes his teeth twice a day, goes to the dentist every 6 months to a year. He knows how to do laundry correctly! lol Um He's been through a lot, he's not perfect but um He's really cool. Sometimes I feel like shy or nervious around him which I dunno why cause I never feel that way around anybody but um I dunno. I like him but I dunno if he is someone I should date or not yet. we will have to see...

Paragraph evaluation

Throughout my revising process I have changed specific details and punctuation using my handouts from class. I was not able to do any specific changes from a peer review because my document would not properly submit to comment so no one could leave comments on my paragraph. I think that comment is a really good program and it can help you tramendously improve your writing because you are getting comments from your peers on how they view your writing. Sometimes if it is just us reviewing a paper we tend to be blinded and aren't able to see our own mistakes.

Just on my mind...

Well I dunno I think I seriously might have manic depression. I still go from extreme highs to lows. Like just yesterday I was in a really good mood pretty much ever since I got on the plane to come home but now I just feel like I have nothing to be happy about. I have been thinkin about Terrance a lot. I missed him this weekend :[ lol He is like my BFF and I really didn't think I would miss him as much as I did. I have been really mean to my mom for like no reason. I dunno why I do that, she does so much for me. Like she has no money and she took me shopping sunday and spent like 300 dollars on me! I dunno why my mom buys me all this stuff when I don't need it but she does... and thats why I love her. But I dunno I think she is starting to get hard of hearing or something everytime I'm on the phone with her she repeats what I say but she hears the wrong thing. I just don't understand and it really irritates me and I get an attitude with her and I feel bad about it but sometimes I can't help it. plus I'm on my rag soooo I dunno.

I HATE FLYING!!!!!!!!!!!

So I wrote about all the crap that happened to me on thursday wellllllll todays monday and the airlines SUCK!!! My flight to NYC got booked at the last second so now I'm stunk in Fort Myers airport typing up this stupid blog and doing homework for the next 20 hours! My flight doesn't leave until 4 and gets to NYC ca 7 then my next flight doesn't leave until 10:15! Which means I won't get in the car and be on my way home until around 12 and it takes me 2 to 2 1/2 hours to get to Lynchburg from Richmond. Which means I will get no sleep! THEN I have to get up at like 6 in the freaking morning to go to this STUPID court date!!!!! FOR THIS STUPID TICKET I GOT!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'm so freakin mad right now! and I have 2 FREAKIN STUPID MID-TERMS THIS WEEK AND I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED STUDYING FOR!!!!! I'M ABOUT TO HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN! actually I kinda already did when Artie was here because I feel so stressed out! RAWWWWWWRRRRRR

Humberto

Is this not the most precious looking kid ever?! This is Humberto, He is an orphan in Bolivia. I can honestly I don't think I have ever loved a child as much as i love him.He has truly touched my heart and soul and I will never be the same ever again. He is just the most happy, amazing, beautiful child I have ever seen or met. The sad thing is not only is he an orphan.. His mother beat him so badly that he has scars on about 60% of his body... It's funny how God shapes our hearts and minds to be softer to certain things. Some people have been down to the orphanage, had fun, and never returned. But me, I never want to leave. I love Bolivia, I love the orphanage and everytime I go it just tugs at my heart and I have to go back. I dunno if this will ever subside until it gets to the point where I just move there! lol But I have just been contemplating like.. How could I adopt him, and there is just no way now I have nothing prepared at all, but It's just like when you see a wonderful child like that in that kind of position and you grow a bond with them, you can't let go.. I can't wait til Dec. 23rd!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday

Today is Saturday. I woke up this morning at like 8:30 which is pretty weird concidering I went to bed at like 2 in the morning. I stayed up late online talkin to Terrance about salvation and how once you are saved you are saved forever. Never to get sent to the fires of hell. but his thoughts were you have to ask for forgiveness after every sin or you will go to hell, even if you are saved. Which yes, you need to ask for forgiveness for all your sins, BUT it is not required to enter heaven. Or else God sending Christ to die for our sins would be pointless. But anyways, I woke up early so I was like Ok, I'm gonna do my devotion and start on some of my homework... NOT, didn't happen. I am bein such a procrastinator at home. I have two MID-terms when I go back to school and I haven't even started studying! Which is HORRIBLE!!! and very irresponsible so I am gonna have to get it together here. I will study today after I get back from lunch with my BFF Bianca! and then tonight at like 5 I have to go pick my mom up to go to my Papa's house for dinner. Oh and Nate made me upset yesterday cause I called him and he didn't pik up, so a few minutes later he calls me back and I started talkin to him about this youth group thing I went to and then I was trying to get everything out of the car so I was like hey let me call you bak in 5 minutes. So I called him when I got settled in the house like 5 minutes later and he didn't pick up the phone... So he writes me this e-mail at like 11:30 and He's like sorry I didn't call you bak. I'm at a social event with my friends but you can call me if your still up and you get this message. So I just responded yea, I'm still up. I don't care about what he was doing but he could have just picked up the phone and said that instead of waiting 2 and 1/2 hours and writing me a e-mail? .... but whatevaaaa

Home...

Home has had it's upsides and it's bad sides... I have been having some great things happen and some not so good things. I have slowly started leading My Dad and My bestfriend to Christ. but As for my mother, she believes in him, But she refuses to move her feet because she is listening to lies of the devil. She doens't understand why God doesn't protect innocent children everyday that are getting sexually and mentally abused. But I gave her mulitple reasons and examples and she still doesn't believe thats right, but she continued to say nothing I would say would make her see that that is ok. But as far as My dad, He has taken a complete 180. He has started reading the Bible and is trying to understand Gods calling on his life. and he is leaning on God and not his own understanding. As far as my church life, I got offered a job at the orphanage that our church is responsible for in Bolivia after I graduate so that was pretty amazing. I am really concidering and I think I will live there. I CAN'T WAIT TO GO THIS DECEMBER!!

Thursday

SO Thursday I basically spent the whole day traveling. My day started at 5:30 I got on the road headed to Richmond at 6:30... I get on 460 for no lie, like 15 minutes if that and I spent the next 20 sittin still in traffic. So I was like ok I'll just turn around get off at the next exit and i will stop and ask em where the nearest exit is so i can go around the traffic. Instead I get off and it leads to another highway and another highway and then I'm lost sobbing on the side of the highway. Finally I get back on the right way. I get to the airport at 10:00, My flight leaves at 10:25 so I'm freakin out. I get there and They tell me my flight was delayed.. So I get on my plane at 11:30 and I get to NYC and My connecting flight to Fl was canceled. Thennnn I go to get my new ticket at the counter and I try to explain to the lady that I already have a reservation for the next flight and a seat and everything but she can't find me ANYWHERE in the computer supposedly so I tell her how my dad works for the airline bla bla bla and this puerto rican lady that works there comes marchin over yellin at me about how I need to go to the service desk and I'm out of control and I need to calm down. I was seriously about to smack her. In conclusion I walked away and got my ticket on the flight and I finally got home safely after 11 hours of traveling!!!

Nate

Sooo this is Nate, You might now him from our english class. lol. Um, We have been hangin out the past couple days. He's pretty cool. At first, I was attracted by his character in class something about him just screamed nice guy! lol so we talked on Facebook about the bible and shared some of our testimony which was really awesome because I've never really talked to someone like that before. Then we hung out at the game this saturday and I was like yea he's a nice guy but he seems a little shy...and I'm the total opposite. Um then we hung out and watched a movie last night on the hill which was pretty sweet. and Today we talked for a while in between classes and then we ended up goin to eat at sonic for dinner together and spent like a hour talking n hanging out. Afterwards, I thought you know maybe he's aight.. lol but I still didn't feel like I would take it anymore that friendship.. Then.... tonight we went to see a movie together, I dunno if it was him or just bein in that atmosphere lol but He was sitting beside me and everytime a scary part would come I would like grab his arm, [cause it was right there! lol] and the first time was no big deal... but the 2nd time I was like dang, he has really nice arms! lol and I just kept thinking like DANNNNG lol I dunno. I guess i'm forming a crush but I dunno I need to find out more about his character in depth and his beliefs, he has shared with me briefly, but I would have to hang out more to tell. BUT either way we're not dating this semester!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDD Just fun eye candy and fun to be around :DDDDDDDDDD

Youth Ministry

I dunno what it is, whether it is my teacher or the major I don't like. I have Youth Ministry on Tuesdays and Thursdays. In the beginning I thought the class was exciting and my teacher was really funny. But now I find myself sleeping in class and rolling my eyes at his lame jokes. All he does it tell jokes all period long and I feel like it is such a waste of my time. When we do take notes we are simply filling in the blank and I believe his intentions are to talk somewhat about the subject but he always gets way off topic in his jokes... It gets really irritating. Today for the first time I seriously fell asleep in his class and when I woke up we were on the same page of notes we were on when I fell asleep!!! Not only that but I just feel the topics he is bringin up are kind of repeptitive to me. I already know all this stuff. I was thinking about getting a minor in youth. But I definitely think I am going to reconcider!!

Song of Solomon

So this Friday I went to the Song of Solomon's conference. I ended up only going Friday and not Saturday but I will get to that in a moment. Friday was amazing. I really enjoyed Matthew Chandler at Convo and at the Conference. He is a really great speaker for people our age; he makes things fun and exciting. I never knew song of songs was such a beautiful poem. I never knew there was stuff like that in the bible to be honest! It was so beautiful how he talked about his wife and their first time sleeping together and how he just adored every bit of her. Matt really explained how sex after marriage is suppose to be; nice and slow. How spoke in detail on each chapter and talked about how detailed Solomon explains his wife and her body. But I was really upset that I didn't get to go to the 2nd half because of my friend Terrance! We stayed up on AIM argueing about the Mosaic authorship of the Pentateuch!!! I waisted 10 bucks!!!