Leaving Liberty...

I will miss Liberty so much. =[ I really like it here. I like the weather. I was hoping to see snow this year, but that doesn't look likely. =[ I am really upset about that. I really liked all my teachers this year, except my youth professor. Not so much that I didn't like him. I just didn't like his teaching style. He takes the whole class period talking about his personal experiences rather than going through the notes and everything in the notes is on the exam.. but he's mad because he didn't write the book up. It just frustrates everyone in class. I will miss my roommate, she is awesome. We joke around a lot and she is really sweet. We didn't have any problems this year, but she is kind of a passive person. So I dunno if I was the roommate she dreamed of. LOL. But I have to say I really enjoyed my first semester of College. It can only get better from here. It may get harder, no doubt. But it is awesome. I love Liberty and I am gonna miss all my new friends. Some girls on my hall just came by and knocked on my door to sing Christmas Carolls in their bra's [??] LOL. I swung open the door and I was like "I'M TRYING TO STUDY!!!!" and slammed the door in their face. LOL. they were shocked. Then I opened the door and I was like just kidding!! hahah

My High School English Teacher!

My High School English Teacher sucked!! LOL. Seriously she taught me NOTHING the whole freakin year. All we did was read Beowulf, watch the movie, and do vocab. We wrote one essay, but it was not graded by our grammar or punctuation just by the content or the fact that we did it. Mrs. Green taught me so much more this semester. She taught me more this semester than I have ever learned in any of my english classes about writing papers. I am really glad I had Mrs. Green this year because she takes time to talk with you about all your mistakes and why they are mistakes. I always had to have somebody else edit my papers. Now I get frustrated when people edit my papers because when I get them back I always find stuff that they missed and I'm like dang why didn't they say something about this. This is horrible! Haha. I think I have improved so much in my writing this semester. I really wish I could take 101 with Mrs. Green but she doesn't have a semester long class =[

CHRISTMAS CHEER

Well This Christmas is going to be the best. I get to go back to the orphanage!! I am soooooooooooooo excited! 3 weeks from today I will be on a plane on my way to Bolivia! I know I will miss Nathan and my Mom a lot. But I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
THE ORPHANAGE AT CHRISTMAS!!! I went last x-mas and it was the best x-mas I have ever had in my life!!! Today in convo they were talking about the real meaning of Christmas. It's not about recieving, it's all about giving. I really realized that when I was in Bolivia last year. This year for Christmas I didn't ask for anything. I am probably just going to get some books. That's really all I want. I want to spend christmas w/ Nathan but that is just a present I am gonna have to miss out on this year =[ I hope I get to speak w/ him. Last year it was a little hard to get in touch and get a ride to a phone booth that was open but we eventually did. I miss Bolivia

What makes me special?!

I'm not writing this blog because I am cocky. Just because that is what this little writing prompt thing told me to write. haha. There are 3 things that make me special..1 is I am blunt. I don't sugar coat anything. If I feel like saying something it is bound to come out of my mouth and 9 times out of 10 I don't regret saying it. If you ask me if something is cute or ugly. I will tell you the truth. Sometimes I even tell people things when they don't ask my opinion, like when I see someones EAR WAX is building up and they need to clean their ears! LOL Secondly, I am crazy. I am a very outgoing person I like to have fun and act silly. I don't care who sees me because that is how I act in private as well. I'm not going to hide who I truly am just to impress someone else or make them think I am "normal" because I'm not! =D Thirdly, I am independent. I think all these characteristics are intertwined. I am a very independent person so I think that is why I am crazy, and blunt because I could call less whether people want to be my friend or not. I have friends and they like me for who I am. If I pretended to be someone else than they really wouldn't like ME. I don't mind going to the movies, or out to dinner by MYSELF. It just doesn't bother me. I enjoy good movies and good food. I don't need someone else there to make it better. sooooooo pretty much I am the greatest person ever!!! LOL JUST KIDDING

CONVOOOOOO

I love convo when we actually have a good speaker!! LOL. I like it when people preach rather than just come up and tell us their testimony. SO today's convo was good even though I have heard this sermon 4 times this semester. LOL. I swear I could preach Genesis 37-42 the whole way through... I have before too, to my dad [artie] this semester. But the speaker today put more of an emphasis on not giving up on your dreams. Never quitting, no matter what. In school, relationships, sports, etc.. I was just thinking about all the times I have quit. I am like the all time quiter. Only one time in my life did I stick with it and that was soccer, and I loved it! I wish I could just push myself like I did then, now! =[ I have had so many dreams, so many goals, yet I have accomplished none, nothing.. I want to play soccer whether it's intramural or for the school like I just want to play! I want to graduate from Liberty w/ a spanish teaching degree and get my masters! I want to go and work in an orphangage in Bolivia. I want to get married before or at least right after I graduate.. I NEED to wait to have kids until I'm about 28 and I have accomplished all these things so I will be financially stable and have time for my children! I want to be an outstanding woman of Christ. I want to glorify the Lord's name in everything I say and do! I want to be a godly example for my Husband and my children. I want to impact thousands of peoples lives for the name of Christ!

PEER EVALUATION

What are some things you missed? I missed a part in the intro. She had her thesis, instead of a thesis question. I missed personal pronouns and pronoun-antecedent agreement.
What do you need to look more closely at for your essay and your peers? personal pronouns and pronoun-antecedent agreement.
How did your peer review help you? Not a whole lot, but it did help.
What specific advice did he/she give and how did it impact your first draft? personal pronouns and some structure.
What grade do you thing he/she earned for his/her efforts and insight? mm probably an 80-85? It was a lot more verbal though than actually written down..

I feel like writing..pt 2

So anyways to get back on track at my original point about being confused.. My # 7 is Nathan, and I really hope this is my one and only and my last b/c I CAN NOT HANDLE ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP! [I probably shouldn't be putting this all online but I just gotta get all these thoughts out.] I'm just scared. like not even scared. I'm TERRIFIED. I'm so sick of getting burned. I'm so sick of pouring my heart and soul into something and then the person changes or becomes a psycho-path. LOL. I'm sick of in the beginning being treated like a princess only for a month or two later be treated like the scraps you toss down your garbage disposal. Like I put Nathan on this pedestal right, and this weekend it just fell to the ground and smashed into a thousand pieces. I'm not saying I lost love for him or that we are over. I am just saying I have my guard up now and I HATE IT. I absolutely hate it. Like writing this write now. I feel pain, agony, I feel like my heart was sitting on that pedestal when it smashed to pieces... I just feel like crying and never stopping but I have shed so many tears that I can't cry anymore. I want to trust, I want to love, FREELY. The thing that sucks the most is I can hear "I love you" a million and 1 times a day but until I see that. I won't believe it, not anymore. I need security to know that I am the only woman that matters in his life [except his mom, cause she rocks, well all his female family memebers are excluded lol] and I don't know if he can give that to me, and it hurts.. it hurts really bad..